Autism: What It Looks Like Today
I know that many people have perceptions of what Autism
“looks like”,
but we have our own perception of it here at the Mouse House.
Autism means that we don’t deal with “typical” issues on a day-to-day basis. We deal with lots of tantrums and fights. Possibly bruises and bites and screaming fits.
Autism also means lots of hugs and love and snuggles.
Ethan loves to pretend he is a bunny.
He loves to give kisses and hugs like a bunny.
I take what I can get.
We also understand that small triumphs are huge!
Sharing toys or being nice mean a lot.
Acting like a typical 5 year old gets you extra points!
I assume this is why we don’t get invited to a lot of playdates???
Sometimes people are scared of kids on the spectrum, that is okay! I get it!
Ethan refers to himself as “The Number King” haha.
He even writes it on his papers at school.
I don’t have the heart to correct him yet!
In fact, I am so proud of how academically ahead he is!
He can apparently count to one million (or so he says)
However, he is so far behind socially and we struggle.
I wish there was more we could do.
I feel terrible. I try so hard, I really really do.
It has been a long road.
I get hit a lot.
I get yelled at A LOT. Like a whole lot.
However, he is the nicest kid ever. Honestly. He WANTS you to like him so much. He is one of the sweetest kids I have ever met.
I am his Mama Bear.
And I want the world for him.
I just don’t know how to give him that!
I hug him every morning before school and I say “I love you” and I don’t know if he will ever understand that term fully.
I love you Ethan, even though you may never fully understand how I feel. You are my pride and joy. I was meant to be here for you and you will do amazing things.
